hearts-parade

My thinking Was so foolish. The past, I can't forget. Regrets can't Vanish in an instant. Events can't be Undone. The words can't Stay left unsaid. All this wishful thinking It’s absurd. Forever passionate Forever alone For as he still sees her, Shining brightest, I only see him. An immortal star That will never burn out.

Too much of a coincidence You made the Rain. What? What did you tell me? Angered words Written so calmly Are screaming Screaming in my face. Never knew I could feel this way... I never knew I could hurt so much. And this is only the beginning Of a war.

Do you really care? It’s hard to tell you What I think. It’s hard to tell you How I feel. If only you would Just listen. Just listen, and let me Speak. But it makes no sense To feel this way. It seems so stupid To look at you and See something more. She is always with you. What a perfect pair. Oh, how lovely they are Together. So why do I even bother? I’m such a nuisance, Trying to get closer to you. Just let go of my feelings Surrender the dream That will never come true.

                                                    "I love you."            She watched him walk away. She whispered. She whispered her secret confession, while watching his back longingly. In her mind, she almost wished he had stayed to listen. She almost wished he had heard her undying emotion. But, no. That would ruin everything. Their friendship would turn into awkward glances, and besides, he had her. The queen in everyone's world. She turned away from him, and began running. She ran towards her locker,  wiping away tears, remembering.                                    She had forgotten her homework.                              

...and how do you Think I feel as I Watch you walk away? ...and how much Pain do you think I Feel when you look right Through me? Such an inspiration For a lonely heart. You brightened my life To the highest degree. Only for it to come Crashing down on an impact. ...and I thought you loved me... Such a fool I am. I'm only someone for You to pretend with. Only to be thrown away When she is here, But recycled for when She disappears. I don't want this. Not anymore.

If you could hear my thoughts, What would you say? If you knew my deepest secrets, How would you react? If you felt my innermost feelings, Would you love me? If you could see the scars You've left on my heart, What would you say? If I surrendered, and gave up On my secret love, How would you react? If I could just be her, Would you love me? Would you love me?

It was all so perfect. So lovely, like a dream. All so perfect. All...so...             Broken. Shattered into a million pieces. My world is trying so hard To stay together, Though I just want to let Go. He was my only escape. My only way to leave cruel reality. But the exit has been blocked. The sunlight erased From all of my memory. And, only the pain From my bleeding heart Remains.

Just leave me alone now Locked up inside myself Feeling so empty I have nothing to say to you. Oh, how easy it is to lie. The memories Forever taunt me. Why did you do all those things All those things for me If in the end, You never really cared? You never really cared... Maybe I’m just overreacting. Or maybe I’m not. With every tear that falls, You slip further away. Further, deeper Into my heart.

Hidden by the mask All the sorrow Forced smiles and laughs In place of tears and Trembling hands Just letting go... This feeling... It’s incredible Of ultimate bliss Only a few words can make Me break. They just won't disappear Won’t go away Driving me to the end of my Sanity Everything falls a part As I travel through My own oblivious world.

Just a mask With a smile Painted on it. Oh, how fragile and Delicate it is. Just some happy thoughts. Fake, untrue thoughts Of how things should be. But they are not. And they never will be. Just some friends Who are never there. Never there to make you Happy When you truly need them. Just a special person Who will never notice you. Who will never see you, Through her. Never. Just a mask With a smile Painted on it.